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hey i have been losing weight very slowly which is fine by me. i just find it hard to find motivation to eat right n work out. normally i would keep in mind a pair of jeans im trying to get into. but that seems to make me mad when i still cnt fit them. i need more ideas. so tell all!
start weight 282
current weight 250

well its the last day of the month and my weigh in day. Took me several hours to actually convince myself to get on the scale. this is due to knowing that on a normal basis i usually go up a pound or two from my last weight. Well, i know from past experiences as soon as this happens i just give up completely. I havent been walking like should be everyday due to the rain. but i have been eating alot better here lately. actually aware of the food i consume. Where as before i would eat anything i thought of. Now i see what the people around me are eating i think to myself do they not realize what thats doing to them/ is it really that good to risk those problems? then i realize that just two weeks ago i myself ate three times as worse.

now on to the scale drama. i figured it best to weigh in bi weekly. or no more than two times a months. so its the end of month and i weighed 269. my first weigh in was 7/14 and i weighed 282. so 13lbs down so far. this is what im afraind of . i always seem to get this far and only this far, how do i continue? i always sabotage myself someway. i will weigh in again aug 15. and i will be happy for anything under 275. maybe this way i wont hate myself if i gain a lb or two. and anything under my current weight i will be ecstatic.

thanks for all the encouraging words and the many blogs i sit and read that give me hope and determination. and to my own buddy system, thank you. to anyone who reads this feel free to comment and’or  add me as a buddy. heres to another loss.

sw-282

cw-269

Number obsession..not fun. Everyone knows its NOT good to weigh each and every single day. Yet, we all seem to get up in the morning with one thing on our minds…”did i lose anything yet?” We are never REALLY happy with what the scale says. We either get upset cause we believe we havent done something right or we doubt the results entirely.

I happened to weigh yesterday and it portrayed a significant loss. Yes, i am happy and motivated more than ever but also at the back of my head i feel…fear. Or at lest something that is trying to sabatage my weight loss. As if because i had a loss yesterday, i somehow have an all u can eat buffet pass today? wth…i have gone an entire week like an angel with my eating habits. Now tody is different for some dumb reason. I get up go for my walk, come back and eat a damn strawberry poptart. whats that about. and instead of my usual glass of water im looking at a can of moutain dew. did i mention that potatoe chips are the devil? had a couple handfuls today.

here at buddyslim, i made a couple buddies so far and anticipate  many more. i am trying to stay off the scale that way i really appreciate every pound lost (knock on wood) but not that i weighed its constantly on my mind. tmrw is anew day and back to doing the things that i know will give me results..low fat foods, plenty of water, grapefruit juice for fat burning enzymes, and my daily walks. the walking is becoming a bit boring but it gets me out of the house for alil while. but all exercise gets boring to me if i do it consistently. not to mention my legs and back are getting very stiff. i  might try some easy circuit training for awhile see how that goes, if my weight permits. anything helps right/

well hopefully tmrw goes better than today & may i figure out someway to have a friendly relationship with my scale

well, once again im trying t get fit and healthy. we shall see how it goes this time. feel alil more confident about it this time. cant really explain why but ima run with it ya know. however im using alil help for my appetite, whatever works right? just makes it alot easier to choose the healthy stuff until my cravings stop. so heres to another new start and new friends and new goals.

sw:282   cw:273  twl:9lbs